Chapter 7: Dead Before Breakfast



Chapter 7

Dead Before Breakfast





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The car accident that will kill Tom Atari is still days away.
  
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At the diner Heather Jasmine made small-talk: “I like sucking cock, especially black guys cause you really get a mouthful.”

The waitress heard it, and her face of disgust was so revolting that Tom almost leaned over and slapped her. She was off to another table, leaving Tom to focus on the menu that he knew so well, to keep his imagination from fleshing the back-story for this 13 year-old nympho. What kind of torture and abuse could leave a sweet creature so tainted? And worse, why was his cock getting hard?

Heather let the strap of her dress fall down, her tiny breast spilling out, puffy nipple, inches from the bread basket between them. She saw it, knew it, and she was in no rush to cover up, feeling Tom’s eyes focus on her nub, letting it linger. She took another bite of bread before the eventual concession, slipping the strap over bony shoulder, covering her breast.

“Hey,” Tom said, “Don’t do that.”

She rolled her eyes and continued. “The best part about sucking cock is the cum. It’s all hot and sweet. I like to swallow.”

“Do you? That’s fantastic. Just be ready to order food when the waitress comes back.”

Tom went back to the menu, and Heather stared a long while, trying to take this man in and figure him out.

He saw her spread her legs and stick her finger inside. He watched her put the finger in her mouth and suck clean, his eyes climbing the carefully-worded description of the delicious Denver omelet.

“You want me to suck it?”

Tom was never one for games, put his menu down. “Do you want to suck it? Would that make you happy, Heather?”

For a summer minute she was a child, looking up at him with eyes that asked approval, love in any form. Then she was back in her catskin, slipping beneath the booth, her head between Tom’s legs. He helped her with the unbuckling.

For a child she was skilled... he hated to admit it but her lips and tongue knew the way, made their suction proper, pulled muscles and nerves to a throbbing pulse and a quick climax. The waitress was looking- gaping like an ape at the zoo- but Tom didn’t care, the head of his cock clogging Heather’s throat. She swallowed as promised, and was back up in her seat- the whole favor in less than three minutes. Now she was looking at the menu with a newfound hunger. Tom was fixing his belt when she said: “They’ll make you pancakes anytime.”

Tom felt his stomach too uneasy for egg, placed an order for a bagel, Heather for a short stack with extra maple syrup. The waitress took their orders in awe, her face a contorted fright mask just howling for the back of Tom’s hand. When she left Heather excused herself to the restroom.

That was when a greasy Latin bastard in a red suit turned from the diner counter, leaving his untouched grapefruit and full cup of coffee. Tom spotted it, and knew it was trouble. The man- with kinky hair and a pencil-thin mustache- sat down across from him.

“You liking you breakfast?” He smiled.

“Who are you?”

The Latin man giggled. “Me gusta este tipo.."

Two other Latin men at a nearby table heard this remark and started laughing. They were eating big meals from multiple dishes, both boys the size of a school bus. This is no accident. You were sleeping again.


“Me?” said the man across from Tom, “My name is Los Angeles...”

Again his chorus at the other table snorted filthy, between bites of bacon and sausage. How long had they been here? And how many more?

Tom stood up to get Heather but it was too late. Another wetback spun from the booth behind and forced Tom back down into his seat. He held Atari’s hand on the table while Los Angeles pulled out a gun, bashed Tom’s pinky with the butt, shattering the bone immaculate.

Through the searing pain and the smell of burnt egg, Tom refocused: “What do you want with the girl?”

Los Angeles slipped the slice of lemon from Heather’s water glass. “Don’t you worry. We taking her to school. She gonna learn geometry.”

Los Angeles sucked on the lemon, leaning back and grinning yellow. Tom’s right hand found the revolver in his pocket and he fired twice at the Mexican holding him down, under the booth and into his groin, sending the spic to the tile and one of his testicles to oblivion.

Los Angeles, scowling, angry from the interruption, punched Tom in the face before standing up and heading out, his crew in tow.

Two men in all black- mimes- walked out of the back and left the restaurant. They were not Latin.

Tom stood to follow but the punch had floored him and the pinky... even tough guys... pain. Los Angeles knew where to hit you. He just needed...

Tom woke up to the waitress’ hand on his shoulder and her tuneless warble: “Mister mister you’re gonna have to get out of here.” He looked at her face wanting to send it back. Before he could slap her he stood up, shaky on his legs, and run to the bathroom.

There on the marble tile beside the mop bucket and plunger was Heather Jasmine lying naked with her neck broken twice. Her lifeless eyes stared into his, her private parts angry and molested, and Tom was so overcome he made sick right there in the sink.

Life is a nightmare from which you never wake up.

Moments passed.

The mirror was no help- it only showed his face- and he wiped himself off with the cold water, remembering this existence and all of its gravity.

He made his way out, determined, grabbing a piece of toast off an old man’s tray and slapping the waitress so hard he knocked out a tooth.

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Chapter 154: Ladies Room



Chapter 154

Ladies Room







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Tonight Tom was alone, in the authentic sense of the word, standing in a bathroom stall, the toilet caked with piss and dried period, turning a page in his notebook, tasting his pen out of habit and writing two words in a barely-literate scrawl:


Project Geronimo


A girl- humming- stepped out of the neighboring stall, toilet flushing booze back to paradise. Tom- legs still sore- sat back on the bowl and pulled his feet out of sight. It had been a long night- all the nights are long- and so far all Tom had learned was that he could guess a woman’s age by the amount of time she spent in the mirror: Young girls were out in less than a minute, taking a fresh lipstick or pulling back their hair. Older women had more refinishing to do: the glinx of glass jars, vials and compacts as they took a look at their aging faces, trying in vain to hide the best lines. 

One woman must have been a wreck because she took almost ten minutes at the sink, powder to perfume. Tom could hear every stroke of the metal brush through her thinning hair, pictured repacking her pocketbook the way a pilgrim stuffs a turkey. His legs had been fire.

Now he could hear this humming girl at the mirror, water running. The sink shut off hard and but the humming continued- a new tune- and she swung out, the door closing hard behind her. Not even thirty seconds. He could see her in his headspace: teenager, gorgeous, leaking with the juices. Every man she ever met wanting to ball her brains in, too young/fine to even be afraid. Probably got in by sucking off the bouncer. These clubs... they used to be so classy.

He tried to turn off the detective but it was so much instinct now. He caught himself mapping out the invisible teen’s entire life- he hated that- then his mind went- SNAP- and he forced himself to smell the urine. This was real life, and the only way to stay sane in this olfactory funhouse. There was nothing to do but wait for Sandy. His lowered his legs.

Tom, now 55, now working for scraps. It had been a lifetime- at least- several highs and an awful lot of lows- but the work was always constant. It had to be. He had courted the beauties and balled the wrecks, dodged a bullet or two, taken a couple. Once upon a time he had been in medical school- he was pretty sure anyway. He remembered a day when his face was free of scars, how tough it was to accept the first and how easy it was with the next. 

At one time Atari had potential: he could see the world as a ripe orange just begging to be peeled. And now here he was, in his only suit, on a Friday night, hiding in a nightclub toilet, waiting for Sandy Cole to have a piss.

Success.

Sandy was a doll, end of story, an Amen followed by a Hallelujah. She was the one good thing- the only thing Tom could ever trust. Her sculpted face and round bottom were long overdue... where could she be? That’s when the door opened.

Hard feet- too heavy for dancing- made a sound uncomfortable on the ladies room tile. Tom stepped back from the door, probably saving himself another broken rip as it was kicked open, slamming inward against the wall. Bagger Salz stood outside with a nigger beside him, with a sneer on his face. “Tom A-Fucking-Tari... what are the odds?”

He jammed Tom’s knee and Atari folded- neat- while Salz caught his hair and dunked his head in the toilet. “Thirsty- taste this!” It wasn’t poetry, but Bagger Salz wasn’t a poet.

“You must not read the sign on the door, Tom. It says this is the LADIES room!”

Tom’s face was back in the bowl before he could defend himself. He tasted sour salt.

Bagger took Atari's gun and handed and it to the black boy. They grabbed him and stood him up, Tom gasping for air.

Bagger seemed pleased by this turn of events, as if his horoscope had predicted exactly this predicament.

“Any last words before we put a bullet in your eye?”

Tom- dignified- knowing death was imminent- looked into Bagger Salz’ face and spat toilet water.

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Chapter 6: The Virgin



CHAPTER 6 

The Virgin

 


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The car accident that will kill Tom Atari is still days away.

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The man waiting on the bench seat lit up a cigarette, and it was only after his first drag that he thought to look for a wastepaper basket for the smoking match. There was no wastepaper basket. There was also no one in here- just a sign on the wall:

Tom Atari, Private Investigations

It was posterboard, hand-lettered, the drawing of an unsettling eye above the lettering. Marvin wondered what studio graphics could do with the Tom Atari logo. Magnifying glass? Binoculars? Visual reference seemed to be the key.

There was a desk in this dusty lobby, for a secretary ostensibly, but Marvin could see that there was no secretary employed. The surface of the desk was immaculate clean & every woman, every woman everywhere, keeps a flower on her desk. No flower, no secretary. Marvin, done detecting, dropped the smoking match on the hardwood floor.

Tom Atari- ten minutes out of bed- opened the door and entered the lobby, plucking the cigarette from Marvin’s mouth and stamping it out on the floor.

“No smoking.”

“Mr. Atari?”

“Inside.” Tom said, unlocking the knob of his office door with a key on his chain. Marvin stood and followed.

A buzz of the light and then, illumination. Tom pulled a bottle of orange juice from his blazer, popping the cap and having a sip. He sat on top of his desk, which was just as naked as the one outside. He motioned for Marvin to sit in the visitor’s chair, but the man stood instead.

“I let myself in... there was no secretary..”

Tom smiled. “Yeah, she went for coffee. Six years ago.”

Marvin probably would have laughed harder if he knew this was Tom’s first and only joke for the year. His polite chuckle was all.

“She’s probably dead,” Tom said helpfully.

Marvin got to the point. “I’d like to hire you. Jan Perry said you’re the best.”

Tom took a breath & let it out. In that order.

“Jan’s dead.”

“Notwithstanding.” Marvin finally took a seat, in the chair next to Tom beside the desk. “My name is Marvin Millser. I work for MCM Studios-”

Tom was laughing: good, pure. It stopped.

“If you knew Jan then Jan would have told you: I don’t work Hollywood.”

Mr. Millser reached deep into his bag of bullshit.

“This isn’t Hollywood, Mr. Atari. This is America.”

Greasy people know how to buy time.

“I'd like to hire you for a very simple job: we have a young lady under contract at the studio. Her name is Heather Jasmine- beautiful girl. Mr. Majer thinks she will be quite the movie star. In time.”

"She's not yours, is she?"

"Beg pardon...?"

Tom crossed behind his desk and sat down.

"I can tell..." He was grinning. "No stars in your eyes... no pussy on your face."

He spun around in time to see Mr. Millser go red. Poor sucker. You have to entertain yourself.

"No, sir," Mr. Millser said, "I'm too busy with money."

He said it so sweet that you couldn't see the grin on Tom's face going- it was just gone.

“How old is she?”

"I'm acting on behalf of the studio-"

"How old?"

“Her first picture starts filming at the end of the Summer & Mr. Lerner- the head of the studio- would like to help her stay fresh until that time. It's essential to the role, you know."

"How old is she?"

"The camera knows, Mr. Atari. We need you to keep her fresh because... the camera knows."

"I'm a little fuzzy on 'fresh...' Does this girl fuck goats? Does she drink heroin juice? Cross the street against the light?"

"You're talking about your client." 

Atari knew that yes, he had taken the case, but much worse than that: this cold man was right. He shouldn't talk about a client that way.

"Her name is Heather Jasmine and Mr. Lerner at the studio would like her to have a chaperone until production starts in August."

Tom watched Millser talk, feeling more sympathetic for the man. This was a talented drone, an inspired messenger but no more: why bust his chops? 

"A chaperone who will see to it that she gets plenty of sleep, loses plenty of weight, and that her virtue remains... unsullied.”

“About the weight- I don’t push any pills.”

“No pills necessary. Just keep her out of the candy store.”

“And about her virtue... you’ve got the wrong guy, Millser. Protecting ladies’ virtue is a job for a white knight or a hero and I’m neither, believe me, not promising a thing.”

Someone was in the lobby- Tom heard the door close in the outer room.

Mr. Millser stood up then, smiling, “I don’t think you’ll have a problem with that.”

Through the doorway, behind the smiling producer, Heather Jasmine made her entrance, sun dress because of society, lit cigarette burning quickly in her delicate fingers, a mane of blonde hair that didn’t care for combs, and a look in her eyes so blissfully pissed and helpless it was all he could do not to fuck her right there on the desk.

Mr. Millser beamed. “Tom Atari, this is Heather Jasmine.”

Tom nodded. Heather blew smoke.

Mr. Millser dropped a fold of bills on the desk and added before leaving: 

“She’s thirteen.”



Chapter 149: Raspberry Gardens

Chapter 149

Raspberry Gardens





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The car accident that will kill Tom Atari is still days away.
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It was the goddamn sun that caught Tom Atari sleeping, in a stranger’s bed, dress shirt torn and knotted bedsheets in a bunch: unsolvable. The blonde beside him- dreaming of the day’s first cigarette- turning underwater, all slumber and scowl. It was the cursed sun that made it’s way through the cloud bank, beaming down on Sick City, splitting finite to infinity with another idle day. The cityscape was putting on it’s makeup- pink and purple shadows from the valley, glowing pastels peering through panes of glass, golden rays from Heaven, soaring optimistic through the blue sky, only to burn themselves out in the shadows of Tom Atari’s matted chest hair. It was enough to make you smile. Almost.

The girl unconscious was Russian, and although her name was Tatiana Tom kept calling her Olga, over and over and forever again. It was a bad link in his head, a crossed wire, and the harder he tried to remember Tatiana the more he called her Olga. It was one of those things he couldn’t change. Olga/Tatiana had been a voracious tiger: demure until the vodka helped her find her heart & soul and- surprise- it turned out to be between her legs. She had ridden him hard: saddled him proper and led the charge on a city-wide milk run. Drops of sweat down her armpits sweet: Tom was collecting.

She slept like she fucked: loud & hard and just now Tom heard her spasm, directing traffic, before she fell back into a sleep deep enough for Franz Ferdinand, and Tom knew he'd call her Olga once more- no matter how hard he tried, no matter how much of a detour he rigged for the thought process- and as his eyes adjusted to the gleaming sunlight he was already writing a joke of apology, already spotting her forced smile & wrinkled nose, already sorry for testing her patience. This man’s morning: Could he apologize in time to get her to the waffle house for a good cup of coffee?

Last night was Olga/Tatiana’s apology. She had hired him for security a couple year’s back- to protect her from the Mayor- but that was a story from another file. Since then she had promised to thank him with her lover’s lips- a nice offer if nothing else. He had written it off but two New Year’s ago Tom ran into her at a nightclub and decided to bang her in the coatroom. He remembered her laughing, equally sloshed... her round ass against the wall, her hopeless blue eyes looking up at him, afraid and loving it. Tom remembered slipping a belt out of a trench coat and using it to tie her wrists- if you know Russian women you understand. Little did he know her chain-smoking auctioneer husband had seen them slip away and decided to storm them both before Tom could get it wet. Olga/Tatiana spent a week in the hospital with a broken collarbone, and Tom greeted 1956 alone, black-eyed & blue-balled.

Had she been worth the wait? The answer was yes and no, but at that moment two pigeons on the fire escape came out of hiding with a sudden sticky flipping of their wings, like somebody shuffling a deck of marked cards. Tom sat up: the birds were up and out- evicted easy- off into an indifferent sunrise, feathers lingering in the white light. The source of their fear was soon clear, as a hat appeared on the fire escape. The hat, climbing up the ladder beside the building, and Tom recognized it right off, an oily fedora, the pudgy man packed inside ascending, bouncing in his brown suit, single-minded in purpose and only lightly winded.

Step by step, rung by rung, revolver clutched openly in his hand, Bagger Salz did rise, inevitable as the chorus, focused as a projector, heavy lips and squinted eyes fixed in formation. He rounded the fire escape beneath Olga’s story, and Tom- awake now- had to grin: so the fat man had a memory, not always a good thing, and he was coming back on this Spring morning to finish the job sloppy.

Tom saw this man, death in his dilated pupils, and only had to ask himself would he get out of this in time for waffles.

Someone had sold Bagger Salz an Invisibility Potion- a good one. It was too bad that it had worn off & that Bagger didn’t seem to know it. He hustled up the staircase clear as day- obvious as child abuse- bold to all but the blindest. Tom took minutes to watch him reach Olga's terrace, look down over the ledge- the view!- and double-check the chamber in his gun before bursting inside the bedroom, catching his ankle on the window ledge and licking his lips and mustache, ready for poetic revenge.

"TOM!” he shouted, and Olga bolted upright. Tom grabbed her tit with his left hand and shoved her back down while firing at Bagger with his right. A new hole emerged in the hog's head- oval- and maybe some blood dripping too, and Bagger grinned and stood on tip-toes like he had to tell a massive story or take a great shit. 


Tom almost smiled back but this was real life you filthy cocksucker...

Bagger obeyed gravity by buckling at the knees, collapsing convenient onto the floor of Olga's bedroom.

Now this blond looked at Tom only slightly upset- her sore breast more upsetting than the dead body: both going purple. She was a quick learner- one of the things that had drawn Tom inside- and she seemed to understand that this man had come to kill Tom and so Tom had had to kill him first. There were no questions for her to ask. The other tenants of
Raspberry Gardens hadn’t heard a sound: they were sound asleep and believing in the President.

Dead Bagger spouted blood from his head wound, the final geyser in the short life of a grunt bagman. Olga licked her lips, “Let's go to the waffle house," she said, slipping out of bed.

"Not yet." Tom pulled her back to the bed by her hair. "I need some pussy for those waffles."

She let her heavy body hammer hard on him, wide, swollen hips and shank strong...

"Gimme that pussy, Olga..."

And her legs unraveled, spiderlike, as only Russian women can do, collecting him beneath her, around her, inside her. She straddled him, and Tom's cock was warm and wet before he felt the barrel of his own gun against his temple. He knew he was dead, knew he had trusted too much, taken too much for granted, and for once he was ready. He was ready to turn & face his music.

He couldn't figure out who she was working for, or why, but it didn't matter anymore... he looked her in the eye and tried to be a gentleman, tried to cum before she pulled the trigger.

"My name..." her tongue came out involuntarily, like a snake on a solo mission, licking her upper lip and lingering as she slowly used her hips to start the ride.

Then, in whispered prayer- staccato- through involuntary contraction of the vaginal muscles, Tom did hear his salvation.

"My... name... is... Tatiana..."

She let go of the weapon, having taught him his lesson, and bunched her blonde hair above her head as she brought the car into the garage. The gun fell off the bed silent- into the soft folds of Tatiana’s pink bathrobe.

This time he would remember her name.

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