Chapter 65: Soda Girl


Chapter 65

 Soda Girl




Tom Atari watching Leah lick her lips, awkward, her eyebrows bunching ugly under black-rim glasses, her face register new flavor, her head shiver involuntarily. She stepped back against the wall, her breast overflow against the lace of her uniform, knock the baseball signed by Stan Musial, rolling lonely on the shelf above her midnight locks while Leah’s tongue came out to make yuck. These were the moments.

This is why Tom drinks ginger ale.

The boy, the idiot, Stevie... Tom watched him watch Leah’s reaction and smile. Stevie, teenaged, her age, wanting on Leah so hard that even Atari had to smile. He remembered adolescence: one thing on your mind and no clue how to get it. Leah knew- women are born with it- and Tom could see from five miles that Stevie would never have it, would never know the joy and release of knowing her close, the fabulous guilt of making her moan, the surprise of her shiver against his skin...

“That’s disgusting!” She handed the cup back to Stevie, his latest experiment in soda, his attempt to find the recipe. Stevie smiled empty as she walked away: something had happened, or maybe not, but most likely he was closer to her heart and hole than he had been before, right?

Right?

“Can I get you another ginger ale, Tom?” Leah leaned against the counter, different from talking to Stevie, different from other customers even. “You look like you had a hard day, did you?” She backed her glasses up the bridge of her nose, momentarily bold, familiar if only to let Stevie see that some men might be worthy of her time. She looked over at the boy, still clutching his cup of rejected nectar.

On most nights Tom would have taken the compliment and run, gone on about his business and let the ginger settle his stomach, but tonight...

Tonight.

Tonight Tom was tired of running- out of energy for building bridges and asking questions and solving mysteries that were only mysterious because most people walked through their days with their eyes wide shut. He was bored with the tough guys, or of cowardly guys acting tough so they could see if he was a coward. Or however that went.

He looked around the soda shop, at the kid with a fever waiting for his momma to come back with the medicine. 

He looked at the lesbian truck driver drinking coffee black and chewing on a steak.

The cash register said ching and Tom couldn’t deny it: he wanted Leah. Here. Now. Tonight. Her red lips meeting and mouthing, her uniform a glorified apron, the musical valley of her voice, sensing how much there was inside... don’t believe it. Get skeptical.

He folded the paper: “Police Arrest Lipstick Killer” and one of the june bugs that found its way inside lit up, cast a bouncing glow from beneath the brim of his hat.

Tom smiled at Leah.

Leah smiled back, afraid for the first time in her life.

Stevie called her over to scoop ice cream for two teenage girls in love with love, and Tom, through the bottom of his glass, saw the milk flesh of her inner thigh as she stood up to reach for the cones.

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Chapter 64: Donnie Seaky Story


Chapter 64

Donnie Seaky Story







The man's name was Donnie Seaky, fucking a woman who wasn’t his wife, thrashing her on the hotel mattress, pounding downtown thunderous like a worker on the clock. The woman- a whore known as Gloria- naked, angry slop, head smash against the headboard, taking the cranial abuse with a mixture of indifference and nonchalance. Tom watched from the window, shoes in the dirt, his camera click in time between thrusts, wanting for a ginger ale, wondering if his favorite soda girl would be working to pull on the pump and pout like she do. He loved the way-


Donnie Seaky threw the hotel chair out the hotel window, shattering glass above Tom’s head, cutting his face jagged nasty while asymmetrical shards collected on his hat brim. Seaky naked- his member at attention and still dripping with affection- flying to the open window- and in the split of the instant Tom understand old.

He didn’t always feel this way: at one time, years gone by, he had been invisible: cat lapping at a sloe-gin fizz. He could take pictures in broad daylight and not draw an eye, he could slip into a building without waking the doorman. But time had worked him over with the back of its hand, his body sore, his mind a library with all the books on the high shelf. And today this dumb muscled kid, this adulterous Donnie Seaky- no more than thirty years- had spotted him through the window, figured him out and tried to kill him in the time it takes to think of ginger ale.

Atari was slowing, maybe, time to buy that bakery, but right now it’s time to stay alive: cheating husbands fight hard.

Glenda Seaky, country girl in a summer dress, freckles on her droop cheeks, begging with her eyes for Tom to take her right there on his desk, begging with her mouth for him to follow her husband Donald Junior on the way to work, to confirm her worst fears and tell her whether the man she loved had his fingers in anybody else’s pie. Tom, desperate for cash, nodding, “yes, I will do this... I will find out... I will let you know,” wearing his funeral face, playing Johnny Honesty for money.

Maybe whore is a two-way street.

Tom dropped the camera in the mulch and Seaky saw it fall, ran past the proof in pursuit of Atari, which meant trouble: Donnie angry/mad enough to want blood. Tom was not in the mood to donate.

And so they were across the parking lot of the pastel Packard Motel, Seaky sic upon Atari like an august dog, bare feet bunching up the green spring grass, onto the scratch and blister heat of the cracked pavement, where his hardened heels begin to bleed.

He was a construction guy, this Donald, according to his wife, and ‘a good man but I think he takes his chances.’ It was her polite way of calling him a pussy bear. Atari, running, felt his lungs try to escape through his mouth. His brain- charred- his synapses misfiring, seeing in his mind’s eye a beautiful nurse named Diane, from long ago, from his days in med school, handing him a chart and a secret smile, her eyes full of moon, telling his heart to beat. “This way, Dr. Atari...”

Tom turning at the corner, making the sign of the cross, praying to God for victory, praying not to go to the gun and end another life. Without looking back he knew Don was more than serious: he could hear him pounding out every step, knew he wasn’t gonna stop to think when he finally got Atari in between his angry knuckles.

On the boulevard Tom ducked into a candy store where they don’t let naked men. Take a breath now, think of sugar...

Donnie at the door, yank wide, six foot of fury in his finest first birthday suit. Tom dashed and Donnie followed, his flaccid cock flopping wild, slapping the bag of candy from a little girl’s hands, spilling her cherry delights to the floor. Her jaw hung open, broken. No comment on the penis.

Tom, overturning glass jars of red hots- shatter- lemon sours- glinx- wild blueberry juju abba zabba slo-poke caramel molasses jelly slice- the floor of the sweet shop a minefield- but the bad boy kept coming.

Atari busted out the back way, into the train yard, spitting distance from the church, Donnie after fast, his feet full of sweets and shatters, lightly salted with blood.

“You catch me fucking!”

Words don’t mean a thing.

Tom, tumble on the tressle, falling to his knees, just a few hundred yards from the holy glow of St. Jude’s, ready to accommodate, prepared to atone. “Your wife hired me... I won’t say a word!”

In the old days Atari would have put a bullet in the boy’s skull, give him something good to think about. But today, for reasons he could not yet understand, he was ready to die before taking a life. Maybe it was time.

Donnie, eager to destroy, stepped onto the tracks as the train came immediate, both men deaf to all but the howl of their overworked hearts. The locomotive struck the construction worker and it was no contest: Seaky was obliterated on schedule, his atoms scattering even among the overgrown grass.

Tom waited in the dirt after the train plowed out of town, feeling the throbbing in his hip, holding out hope for a happy ending, the minor of a punchline.

All he got was a train whistle in the distance. And he knew that it was true.

He stood up, dusty- limping- older than eight minutes ago, decided to go to church, to pray for forgiveness, to humbly beg for guidance.

He wound up getting a ginger ale, watching the girl pour.

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Chapter 14: Good Friday



Chapter 14

Good Friday





Joan, as police woman, head down, fingers on the keyboard, working her magic, singing her song, booking Tom casual in the station house on a Friday morning hotter than ketchup. Atari sits furious in the chair beside, left hand cuffed to the desk drawer, watching her work- female concentrate in blue uniform- while she graced his ears with the music of her voice, making each word just what he needed to hear, like a pipeline to God, but better. You wouldn’t understand.

She talked while she typed: liquid, lyrical over the staccato tick of the typewriter, smiling to herself: “Aggravated assault with a motor vehicle, assault with a deadly weapon, possession of an illegal firearm, unlawful concealment, criminal mischief, destruction of private property, destruction of government property, harassment, resisting arrest, gross indecency and reckless driving.”

Cigarette dangle from her sculpted lips: “Slow night, Atari?"

He wrote the perfect wise-ass comeback but her eyes locked onto his, bulldozed their way into his soul and suddenly Tom Atari was speechless.

Sgt. Joan de Bondi, of the anonymous midnight phone call, brown eyes boiling over like a fist holding flowers, impossibly beautiful, husband and three kids at home wondering why Mommy couldn’t be there baking cookies. The kids couldn’t understand why she had to wear that badge or fight these fires, couldn’t comprehend that the job was more than a career: it was a calling. Tom understood... he could see it in her eyes, one of the reasons why he liked her.

Detective Bobby Jones limped over to her desk, his leg still recovering from the break. He held a steep stack of papers in his hand, like a prize, his groin at her face: “You want to get on top of these?” 

Joan, eyes locked on Tom's, smiled sly: “Do your own fucking typing,” and Bobby hobbled back to his desk to eat paper. Even at ten AM the station house was teeming with all-stars- cops and criminals- processing, making plea-bargain with green bills, testing the new bureaucracy while officers with pimples babysat gnarly armed robbers, all of them learning the system. The heat of the spring wasn't helping. Joan took a sip of green tea.

“How stupid can you get?”

“You talking about me or Jones?"

She blew the hair out of her eyes: “When it comes to stupid I always mean you.”

“I was there for a reason.”

“I figured. Must have been a good reason, right.”

Tom smiled, black eye getting blacker, fat lip going fatter: “The best. I was there to bring in the Lipstick Killer.”

Joan paused. “At the Governor’s mansion. During a private party.”

Atari watched her, held by her spell, and suddenly lost the will to argue. “Yeah...”

“If the professionals can’t catch this guy you don’t have a shot. Wake up, Tom- you’re washed out. You’re old. And you’re ugly.”

A rookie cop led a prostitute to his desk for booking, her perfume stinking the station house pretty.

Tom smiled. “I’ll never give up.”

She sighed, smarter than he would ever be. “You’re really going to take on the whole world? By yourself? The Mayor and the Governor- big Hollywood? Big Oil? The cults and the corporations? You’ll die behind bars if they don’t kill you first.”

“I could use you on my team.” Atari, taking chances.

“Sorry,” while she typed, “I got my hands full.”

He sat back in the green vinyl chair, taking her in, her leg bobbing musical while she formed chords of words against the pulp of the paper, her uniform hugging her chest and calves warm.

“I’ll have you anytime.”

She looked up, off-guard, open, heart visible and soul sublime. He remembered the look, blessing his instincts- she was real life, someone he could trust. The instant split quick- he watched her become a cop again as she rolled her eyes slow. “Good to know.”

Tom sat up in his chair. “Now be a doll and point me to the buffet.”

Joan smiled, laughing in a major key, Tom loving her sound, when somebody shouted: “Atari!”

Across the room Brendan Nichols stood up, bearded and grimed, Irish-angry, a junk dealer, just arrested, his right hand cuffed to the radiator. It had been about a year since he and Tom had tangled, a year since Nichols vowed obliteration for Tom flushing his dope down the ladies room toilet at the bus depot.

Brendan seemed to remember.

He took the gun from the young officer’s holster, slid it out smooth while the kid was reading a Superman comic.

Nichols, howling as he fired the bullet at Tom’s skull.

Atari ducked, missing the shot by a fingernail while the crowd found linoleum.

He tried to run but his arm was cuffed.

He reached for his gun but it had been confiscated.

Officer Boy dropped his comic, leaping to his feet to get the gun but Nichols bashed his face with the butt, breaking the kid's nose and squashing one of his eyeballs, which puddled out his face like yesterday's custard. Live and learn most likely.

Tom was ready for Nichols' next shot, the death blow, mentally preparing himself for the sting and the darkness of what was to come, what it means to be somewhere else, somewhere no one wants to go. He searched himself frantic for meaning or worth. He found nothing.

That’s when Joan stood up from her desk, turned around and slid the chair back, fired her weapon easy, one shot, blowing a hole in Brendan’s chest so wide that his heart literally tumbled out and fell to the precinct floor. A full second passed before his body began to pump blood out the wound, and when it came, the spray was so hilarious that even he had to laugh, a sickening smile spreading across his bulldog cheeks before he took his forward dive into infinity.

His heart sat on the black and white tile beside his outstretched hand, just inches out of reach.

Two officers rushed over to grab the gun and fit the rookie for his eye patch. Tom, on his knees beside Joan’s desk, chained hand dangling from the open drawer, looking up at her radiant beauty, her stunning figure- gun still smoking- and he had to smile when he realized he was still alive and how easy she made it all look.

Atari, grinning: “You saved my life.”

She holstered her weapon, pulling her hair back behind her face, exhaling and lowering her head solemn.

“I’m sorry.” 

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Chapter 82: Letter To The Editor



Chapter 82

Letter To The Editor






The following letter was sent to the police and appeared on the front page of the Sick City Herald on December 23, 1957:


to the news[papers and police men:

I am the man they call the lipstick Killer you need to understand my side of things the story because it is my story after all. I am am the star of the show.

People are afraid I’m glad they should be afraid. Of me and my others. I am the reason this is happening and I can take it or leave it whenever I want. The girls- before I meet them would not know my my name but after I do what I do they love me now. I don’t want to be called Lipstick Killer I never kill with lipstick. I want you to call me the Killjoy because that is what I am. You made up that name up to make a story, but I am the story so work for me. Otherwise.

They nevr know what I do, how I could do it. They never evem ask why. I know why. The police men don’t know me. I am immortal. I can't be stopped I am the disease. HATE. If you kill me another will my place. No cop police or private detective can ever take me out alive. alive

Let’s get one thing straight here: I never touch Juno Rosa. She is not part of this so don’t give me credit wear credit is not due. Meybe Mayor Cryer has to anser some questions about Juno Rosa but not me not me on that one I am a good boy. I know it and now you know it. Too,

When I give it to the girl they are gething what they deserve. It is inevitable I am the new justice. It make me feel alive when they are dead and every living thing deserves to be alive. Don’t even try to finx my method I am undetectable. No man is smart enough to catch me its a pity there is no one brave enough either.

I’m going to keep going doing what I doing for as long as I need to do it. this sick city belong to me and my forces. So no questions or interviews let’s just do it all right. play your part enjoy the show.

And I'm sorry.

But I'm not. Sorry.

I have to go now there is another girl calling my name and tonight I will be having my fun.

I am laughing at you.
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Chapter 210: The Gift



Chapter 210

The Gift





“Do you believe in Satan?”

The question hung, long. Too long. Tom turned on the carpet. This was a yes or a no.

Melvyn Boyle- President of Star Oil, self-control, redundancy- bubble in his seat like a volcano shy of overflow. He was behind the desk in the building’s visitor center, a small conference room off the lobby. Tom, standing, take a breath.


“Do you believe in sacrifice, Mr. Boyle? Have you ever smeared the blood of an animal on your naked body? The blood of a virgin? Have you ever taken part in ritualistic sacrifice?”


Worse crimes- and their criminals- were rolling through Atari’s mind: Standard Oil, US Steel, AT&T & IBM... but he had to take his time, had to take the kids to school the long way. He hated this man sitting at the table in the visitor’s center, this Melvyn Boyle, insulated and contained, a basket of fruit on the wood between them. Boyle’s fat face sat smooth as a grapefruit.


“Why don’t we talk brass tacks? I know about mind control. I know about Von Braun and Operation Paperclip.” Tom leaned down. “I know about Project Geronimo.”


A drop of sweat fell down Melvyn’s face, irresistible, undeniable. Tom would consider it his first real victory.


Boyle shook it off, sitting back in the comfortable chair, Meredith Daily still howling outside, her arm like a boa after breakfast, purple lump making its way to her elbow, her glossy lips vowing revenge as she was loaded into ambulance.

Philanthropy [fi-lan-thruh-pee] (n.) penance for financial, cultural and agricultural devastation

Melvyn Boyle swallowed the sweat, savoring the taste, cannibalistic, his days spent handing out checks to help wallpaper the city he had almost single-handedly destroyed. He was a good man- now- giving back, after taking steps to enslave every man, woman and child in town. He had sold humanity's future for a chance to build a pyramid... and the presidents of oil corporations were not used to this level of honesty.


Tom Atari, you’re in too deep.


The two men standing behind Boyle- twins? clones?- were not bothered by any conversation thus far. They stood in blank faces, matching suits, weapons evident, at attention and ready to kill, which was just fine with Tom: he was ready to die. 

Melvyn smiled, wasting an inhale, “Mr. Atari, do you really think-”

“Let's go to the photographs.” Tom went to his breast pocket, tossing an envelope onto the desk. Boyle took it, opened, shuffled the snapshots left and right, a mixture of pride and shame, a flipbook of him fucking a five year-old, drinking the blood of a goat, and some truly disturbing images as well. He closed the envelope, hadn’t seen a thing.

Melvyn, surprising, confirming his acquaintance with the Dark Lord by asking Tom, “What do you want?”

Tom picked up the present he'd brought- wrapped pretty. “I'm here as a messenger: Your little parties are over. Your lock on this city and the people that live here... that's all over, too. I'll fight you to the last beat of my heart... and I'll win. If you think the Devil is powerful then you’ve never dealt with God.”

Melvyn, flat as horizon: "Is that so?"

Tom, warm, placed the gift on the table. Boyle looked up, confused, then began to unwrap, pudgy kid at a birthday party bored.

The rattlesnake sprung out of the box and uncoiled on the desk, knocking the can of pencils onto the floor.

Boyle kicked back, the wheels of the chair buckling as he rolled back, one of them popping off and sending him tumble him to the carpeted floor.

The bodyguards didn’t move a muscle as the rattlesnake made maraca- inches from one of the wealthiest and most powerful men in the world.

Tom laughed, uncommon sweet in Sick City, plucking a green apple from the basket of fruit and taking a bite. Boyle eyed the viper, paralyzed.

Tom left the office, chewing, "Tell your friends," Melvyn Boyle on the floor, face to face with the serpent.
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Chapter 67: Man Vs. Panther



Chapter 67

Man Vs. Panther




Tony Dare had twenty minutes left to live, was just about to lose his life on a bet so ridiculous that Tom Atari would have laughed if he found it funny. He didn’t find it funny. 

Tonight Tom stood on rare earth, under a red circus tent behind the baseball stadium, where the cockfights went off every Friday night: noisy, the crowd filthy with angry brown Mexicans, gnats at the lights, feathers floating in the air, defying time while jalapeno-powered roosters poke, hack & slash.   

This was the Cowboy’s counter to having his balls cut off: he’d fight a panther to the death. Or die trying. Tony had boasted, started to motormouth, plea bargain in public, and when Tom heard the offer aloud he cautioned: “That’s tequila talking.” It only made the Cowboy more insistent. Besides, Big Gook could do the math: he could book a fortune on a black man and a leopard, no matter the victor. 

For the last two weeks the Cowboy had been in training, or so go the rumors. There were stories of Tony paying neighborhood kids to round up stray dogs so he could wrestle them to death in his basement, getting a feel for the force of an animal in combat. Atari had called his house, a last-ditch attempt at logic, even to offer to get Tony out of town until the sound faded away... all he got was the Cowboy’s housekeeper claiming that a Doberman cut Tony so bad he needed sixteen stitches and couldn’t come to the phone. 

Was it possible: was a man so stupid as to fight a panther in order to save his balls in a gambling debt? With Tony the answer was unfortunately yes. Big Gook had arrived, escorting Ed Goffrey into the crowd, Goffrey in his glasses and his good suit, dressed like a TV reporter. Atari scanned the faces in the unholy arena: Detective Brian Cahill made his way down into the crowd, smoking a fat cigar and looking pleased, Mayor Cryer beside him in dark glasses that didn’t hide a thing. Isaac Lerner stood with an unknown male assistant and Melvyn Boyle brought a bag of popcorn. 

Tom watched the cocks in the center stage thrashing, lashing at one another, tasting bloodlust for the first time and loving it. Big Gook made his way beside while the owner of the winning bird raised it up above his head before the crowd; they showed their appreciation by yelping: clapping and spitting liquor. 

“Where is you Negro buddy? He better show up.” 

Atari was not in the mood. “I’m just a spectator, chop suey... get yourself lost.” 

Big Gook, baffled by the disrespect, dissolved into the crowd as it suddenly went quiet, a strange sound: the absence. Tom couldn’t understand. 

Four Mexicans entered the tent from the left field entrance, solemn expressions, their eyes ahead and darting downward. The mob around them seemed magically to melt away, parting, receding with ease. Atari spotted the panther- hulking crude- leash around its neck, four chains connected, each held by a different man.

The panther was prancing, warming up, and Tom could almost picture it in a fighter’s robe, silk sleeves and towel around his neck. This cat was ready for action. 

The Mexicans led him into the cage in the corner of the tent- 20 x 20- and as the de facto wranglers unchained the jungle beast Tom spotted Tony Dare beside him.

The Cowboy was shirtless, scar on his chest, oil on his chest- glistening- in wrestling pants with a red bandana on his head. His girlfriend Tuesday Jackson just a step behind, a hooker from the boulevard, pocket-size & foul-mouth. 

Tom, to the challenger: “You can’t be serious.” 

“This is another part of me, Tom Atari... or maybe you don’t know me so well. I always pay my debts. I never lose a fight.” 

Tony was drunk. Or stoned on something powerful, more powerful than Tom had ever known. His eyes were wild. 

“This is an animal, Tony, not a Filipino street-fighter-” 

“This is something I gotta do!” Tony Dare looked Atari straight in the eye, gave him a wink and- 

“Now for the title fight of this evening’s entertainment!” Some Mexican, mouth on the microphone, the crowd stomping their feet, salt and cinnamon anticipation. 

“In this corner... all the way from Asia... at five-hundred twenty pounds... the Panther!”

There was laughter from the crowd, and applause, and the beast was held by just one chain, prowling impatient and thirsty for blood. 

Crackle static on the bum speakers: “And in this corner, weighing in at 185 pound is Tony Dare: the COWBOY!” 

The crowd, frenzied, furied, cheering for Tony as he limbered, loosened... Tom, turning, “Don’t do this.” 

Tuesday’s swollen lips, smiling at the Cowboy, mouthing ‘Fuck You,’ to Tom, and then Tony Dare turned to them both, broad smile overtaking his face. He looked at Tuesday and then Atari: “Stay gold.” 

With that he stepped into the cage. The handlers let the panther off the leash. 

“All bets are final.” 

One member of the Mexican swing gang swung the door shut and it was on: Tony went into his stance, bent at the waist, back arched, hands in claw formation, licking his lips. 

The black panther, shuffling, testing his shoulders, growled loud- a final warning. 

Tony leapt to meet the beast but it was too late: the panther struck, removing most of Tony’s face in a single swipe of his claw. Tony’s body- on its back- continued to fight, his nose and mouth in the dirt a few feet away, and the jungle cat ate his face with patience and dedication, Tony’s body making spasm at regular intervals, his fists swinging at empty, the crowd hysterical, fights breaking out, women vomiting down their dresses and men blacking out completely. They had not been prepared for the anticlimax. 

At some point during the festivities Tony Dare the Cowboy became just another piece of meat, and Tom, having lost a friend, turned to Tuesday in the hopes of finding a new one. He took her hand, chocolate breasts spilling from her top, and with a comforting smile, “Let’s get some waffles.” 
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Chapter 209: The Walk



Chapter 209

The Walk




Tom Atari, stepping down the sidewalk, as Sweet Tina the prostitute spots him and approaches- purple- puts her lips on his cheek to press, soft, and Tom say, “Sorry, doll. I don’t have time for that today.”

Tina take the sting like a lady.

Tom, against the wind, taking the walk, downtown, cruel shoes on the pavement making echo, wrapped package in hand, across the boulevard, past the church and the newspaper, past city hall, past the movie theater. He walked past the library, past the Army recruitment center, he walked past the record store. He walked past the schools, past the pet stores, past the crumbling factories, he walked from the past and into the future: construction sites, boys on the corner singing that crazy doo-wop, and he walked across town: building & block, his spine aligned, ready to fight fire with the heaviest of metal, to do whatever it takes to get the job done. Star Oil was a great place to start.

This day, this day didn’t count, was a gap in the work week, the skip on a record album, an extra hour of daylight to play with and shape his own way. Tom Atari was taking full advantage, was gonna do his best to level the playing field while he was still bright with the white light. The faces of the departed, the abused, on the headlines in his mind: Anna Magenta, Paula Trimmer, Heather Jasmine, Sandy Cole...

Building with the five points, and into the lobby, where extraneous secretaries made buzz for junior execs, angling for pole position, papers out of alignment, tight nylons and broken promises, telephones ringing: the urgency of the machine. Tom was not impressed. Some girl looks up from her desk, intaking Atari, and then looked away, over, at the Queen Bee, the head of the secretarial pool: Meredith Daily, her hair in a Biblical hive.

Meredith, whose vagina had lost its voice, redhead and cunning, the door to the Men’s Room. She flew from her chair like an umbrella on payday, polite smile and the understanding that Tom came armed with a little more than most. Her black business dress could have stood up without her, and she took two wet steps toward him that would have the janitor buying a new sponge. Her hair tower, combed in symmetrical strands, “And who might you be?’

“Honey, I’m Tom Atari and I don’t have an appointment.”

This Meredith Daily, somehow prepared for this, the woman ever-ready for every possible reality: a golden gatekeeper. She pulled on her ear to pull the focus from her breasts so she could blink her eyes twice to dazzle Tom blind. It’s an old magician's trick, it's called misdirection, and it's used all the time.

Meredith was good.

Tom was gooder.

“Mr. Tom Atari...” she sang it like she wanted him back, like he was a lover from last week.

He nodded.

“Who is it that you wish to see?”

Tom took a deep breath, took her hand in his, snapped her wrist and broke it, bending it the wrong way, before bringing his face in close, “I wanna see God.”

Chapter 31: Sunset



Chapter 31

Sunset








The Lipstick Killer slipped into Sandy’s hotel room easy, his dummy key melting the lock as the pins- uninformed- fell into alignment, yielding with no audible protest, tumbling to an even pile like dominoes, each with immaculate deniability: no single one of them could be blamed for tonight’s murder if they were all looking the other way. 

The knob, turned, opened and allowed him inside, where his nostrils were flooded with the smell of Sandy’s perfume, her desire, lilac and jasmine and something else... something deeper, lethal... something more female: a scent for which there would never be a name.

Dressed all in black he stepped past the nightstand with the unopened Bible inside, forsaking God, giving birth to the darkness, made his way into the room, seeing the bed fresh-made with its pillows and possibilities... tonight was going to be something special. He had been tracking this Sandy Cole for some time, something about her that got into his pores and made his skin white hot... Tonight he would show her his appreciation, how his passion ran like lava through his veins: tonight he would tell her that he loved her. His fingers clutched his chisel.

Across town, on the other side of Sick City, Tom Atari stopped at the Woolworth’s for a ginger ale, hoping his favorite jerk would be working, and she was. She couldn’t have been more than sixteen, but she was beautiful, hair like leaking ink and black-rimmed glasses, and they offset her glow in a way he found familiar. She knew just how Tom liked his sodas- the extra pull of ginger syrup on the ice before the seltzer. According to the tag on her apron her name was Leah, and Tom might have heard her one day telling her friend about how she wanted to become a nurse. Her smile, sweeter than the candy aisle, and besides he liked to watch her work while he read the Herald. 

Leah poured without a word, her mouth abloom cross her face like a flower in the warm, beaming at Tom both sugar and spice. He was just ready to ask for a cherry when she plucked one from the bin, plunked it in his glass where the bubbles swarmed it in appreciation. She gave Tom a wink. He looked away, stone-faced.

Some nights the sun just won’t go down: not from spite or anger, just a reluctance to leave the stage. Leaving a day this beautiful is as hard for a star in the sky as the men that walk the Earth. The sun took the long way home, meandering zig, ambling zag, bleeding the sky pink and blue, orange and a new kind of purple, the clouds above town soaking up the sweet while the moon found a parking spot. Spring had happened in Sick City.
The Lipstick Killer had stripped, sipped from the toilet bowl and scrawled a line across the bathroom mirror with Sandy’s Russian Red. He smiled while he applied a coat to his lips, puckering at himself in the mirror, his heart starting to buckle, his head hurling in rush. This was going to be everything wonderful.

Two blocks down the boulevard Sandy was at the Red Rose Lounge, on the clock, dancing with Carl Cassidy, a meat-packer in town from elsewhere. Carl- in his travel suit- determined to forget his wife with the company of a female escort, well on his way with Sandy’s charms against his chest, the music of the big city in his head,  taking liberties. He had danced with Sandy once before, on another business trip, two years gone and he still couldn’t get her smell out of his mustache. His hands found the curve of her waist, his heart submerged in the raging tide of her eyes, no matter how hard she tried to send him back to shore. Carl was in lust.

“Maybe we should...” He put his face into her neck while the trumpet player took a solo, the other couples on the floor moving in equally-metered foreplay.

Sandy, still alive, smiled. “It’s early.”

Tom never gambled- it was noise, foolishness- but he picked up the racing form just to see if his friend Lorenzo Vargas was still running Blood Sugar at the Speedway. 

He smiled, spotting the name, newsprint on his fingers. Son of a bitch. Tom checked his watch: still an hour before he had to drive Sandy to the doctor for her appointment. And afterwards, another late night, all alone. Leah, breasts like peaches in season, watching him reading, acquiring the taste for an older man.

Sandy said little on the walk back to the hotel, letting Carl marinade in his moment. He stopped on the cracked sidewalk- still hot- knelt to tie his shoe and for one golden moment she thought he was proposing, her hair bright violet by the sky’s impossible panorama, bulbs from the strip ballooning, her hand gone to her mouth in a shock automatic. They both laughed, knowing what it wasn’t.

The Lipstick Killer crept into the hotel closet, spilling seed on the carpet floor.

Tom watched Leah eat a plate of French-fried potatoes. With ketchup.

Carl held the hotel door for Sandy, spanking her as she raced inside.

The sun, nostalgic, feeling old, shrugged... finally surrendered.

Sandra, intoxicated, giggle on the bowl, in the dark, making spree while the Lipstick Killer severed Carl’s neck, mashing the eyes out his head like grape-pickers pick grapes off the vine, except entirely different...

Tom, into the Chrysler, engine idle into drive, stationary to mobile, down said street and off across the boulevard...

Sandy, emerging from the bathroom, only to see Carl’s hollow sockets, only to look into the eyes of the man above him, only to see how the Lipstick Killer looked just before the kill.

Chapter 66: Big Gook Meets The Cowboy





Chapter 66


Big Gook Meets The Cowboy








Anna Magenta gave good head: it was thoughtful, reflective. She let her mouth tell a story, a story of emptiness inside and the power of pleasure to make it numb. The girl let feel flow, sensation dictate: a loving stroke was followed by a pause- the notes she didn’t play- and Tom found himself smiling in spite of it all, unable to create a scenario for escape, too tired to deny the bliss. Anna’s cheek was swollen with pride.

She squeezed his knees, the four of them in this private lounge, Gentleman’s West on the boulevard, Tom looking down at Anna enterprising, enjoying her career choice. She winked her eye and puckered, storming the shaft as Atari saw God. Beside Tom sat the Cowboy, the blowjob on his dime, his way of you’re welcome. Tom caught an eyeful of the Cowboy’s member: august & ebony- noble- choking a Puerto Rican preteen. As Atari climaxed he took a moment to ponder, to wonder to himself aloud in silence: ‘Is that all there is to the circus?’

After the girls had eaten the Cowboy rolled a smoke, happy as a Saturday but clearly affected by little Coco’s performance: his hands made shake with the tobacco in the rolling paper and the subsequent cigarette hung from his fat lips skinny. With his ten-gallon hat restored to its home atop his nappy hair he was back in the saddle, the Cowboy once more, gleaming bright in his blue suit, living a lie.

Antony “Tony” Dare- the Cowboy- grandson of a slave, sipping on a Cantarito: so black he was purple. He was the only beneficiary to his grandmother’s fortune, she the widow of white oilman and pariah Frederick Dare. Freddy had fallen in love with his black cook Abigail and married her just before striking oil in Lousiana. When he died his money had gone to Abigail, and when she died the greazy money oozed its way into the hands of her favorite grandson Tony. 

Idle, rich, the Cowboy had ambled out to Sick City several years on to piss his fortune away, reinventing himself as a Western hombre, ignoring his skin tone and speaking with a Texas accent, strange for a black boy from Louisiana. He tried his hand at producing independent features only to learn that Hollywood doesn’t like coloreds- even when they talk like John Wayne. After one incomplete Western he surrendered, his lust helping him settle on a career financing pornographic films, his days spent gambling the profits away and drinking in the sunshine. 

Also tequila. Lots of tequila.

“The filthier the Mexican on the bottle,” Tony Dare inhaled, “the angrier the tequiza.” Neither he or Tom spoke, and then Tony, hearing his own words, began to laugh, and eventually Tom with him. General Marder- the bearded bastard on the bottle of booze- looked at the men with low-key disgust, just waiting for the opportunity to slit their throats. Anna was at another table with Coco, both of them mentally counting the bills.

“Some little white kid came up to me on the street... he wanted to know if I’d come to his birthday party...”

Tom laughed.

“On my horse. Do you believe these people?”

The music from the main stage leaking in through the paper walls... circular jazz so the girls could grind.

“Your girl Heather Jasmine... she was never gonna be in the movies...”

Atari looked over, suddenly sobered, certainly confused.

“That was just used as a bait. Just to get her out the house. Away from the folks.”

Tom’s almost asked: ‘How do you know?’ but he thought better, knowing Tony Dare the Cowboy never had to lie.

Atari wondered: ‘One of a hundred?’ and Tony, as if reading his mind, said aloud, “One of a thousand.”

The Cowboy downed a shot of tequila. “Guy I played in a poker game? He told me so.”

Atari could feel General Marder running wild in his bloodstream, recruiting revolutionaries, raping women and children.

“He was a big man. Nobody tell me who he was until afterwards.”

Atari, unable to speak, didn’t.

“They said, ‘Tony, that Mr. Lerner? That’s Isaac Lerner, head of MCM studios.’ You can bet I look him up after that.”

“Isaac Lerner? The head of MCM Studios?”

“That’s the man. They recruit the girls and then...”

Tom- shot glass in hand- forced himself to swallow. “And then...?”

Tony nodded. “Half make the pictures, the other half Project Geronimo.”

“He said that? He said ‘Project Geronimo’?”

“His words.” The Cowboy poured another ounce of poison. “What the fuck does it mean, anyway?”

Tom sat up, the sight of Big Gook turning his blood green. The Cowboy, stoned, could barely swivel his head.

Big Gook, a bucket of chow mein in a brown paper bag, yellow skin, front teeth to fuck the Easter bunny, head like a hot-air balloon. His real name was Ming Hung and the fact that he couldn’t speak English didn’t stop him from trying. He would have been a load of laughs if he didn’t work for Ed Goffrey as a collector. 

As an enforcer.

“Good afternoon, gennerman.”

He had brought his friend with him, a short slope with cross eyes, a Fu Manchu, and his hand in his pocket.

“Oh no,” Tom Atari, reaching for his gun.

Anna and Coco- one of them surely having made the call- removed themselves from the room.

Big Gook laughed, showing off the blue of his teeth, Fu Manchu steady.

“Hello, Atari,” Big Gook, “don’t worry- today is not yo day today.” He smiled, a serpent unfurling, “We here for the Negro.”

Tom’s finger, rounding the trigger... Fu Manchu watching, ready to pull his piece.

Tony Dare turned to Tom, “You believe this shit? This is about gambling debts.” As if Tom didn’t know.

“You owe SO much money,” Big Gook turned over his shoulder to Fu Manchu, who found the subtle humor in the line without moving his eyes. 

Big Gook gave good chuckle.

The Cowboy licked his massive lips: “Chris Lee gave me to the end of the month.”

The smile was gone from the Gook’s face, faster than cars drive through Montana. 

“Chris Lee...? I don’t see him nowhere.” He stared at the Cowboy.

Tony Dare, sloshed, stood, and in a bolt of lightning Fu Manchu’s gun was pointed directly at his heart. Tom had let his guard down, fatal, would have been dead before the orgasm. 

“Christ!” The Cowboy.

“Sit down.” Big Gook as traffic cop, turning to Fu Manchu, “No no.”

The gun must have had a mind of its own: Fu Manchu nodded in understanding but the Smith & Wesson didn’t move a muscle.

“We friends here. All buddies." Turning to Tom, "Right, buddy?” 

Atari nodded, knowing when to fold. He put his gun on the table and sat back for what was next.

“Right, buddy?”

The Cowboy- hands in the air- lowered them slow, and then, tense, “Right.”

Big Gook pulled up a chair and sat across from the Cowboy. “Only in movies they shoot everybody with pistols. You no good to Mr. Goffrey if you dead. Don’t be a silly!”

It was the way he said ‘silly’ that made Tony laugh, kicking up his boots as his body shook, and then Tom was laughing too, exhaling, taking a much needed shot of General Marder’s righteous nectar. Tony lit a smoke.

Even Big Gook smiled as he pulled out the bowie knife: “But I do have to take you testicles.”