Chapter 31: Sunset



Chapter 31

Sunset








The Lipstick Killer slipped into Sandy’s hotel room easy, his dummy key melting the lock as the pins- uninformed- fell into alignment, yielding with no audible protest, tumbling to an even pile like dominoes, each with immaculate deniability: no single one of them could be blamed for tonight’s murder if they were all looking the other way. 

The knob, turned, opened and allowed him inside, where his nostrils were flooded with the smell of Sandy’s perfume, her desire, lilac and jasmine and something else... something deeper, lethal... something more female: a scent for which there would never be a name.

Dressed all in black he stepped past the nightstand with the unopened Bible inside, forsaking God, giving birth to the darkness, made his way into the room, seeing the bed fresh-made with its pillows and possibilities... tonight was going to be something special. He had been tracking this Sandy Cole for some time, something about her that got into his pores and made his skin white hot... Tonight he would show her his appreciation, how his passion ran like lava through his veins: tonight he would tell her that he loved her. His fingers clutched his chisel.

Across town, on the other side of Sick City, Tom Atari stopped at the Woolworth’s for a ginger ale, hoping his favorite jerk would be working, and she was. She couldn’t have been more than sixteen, but she was beautiful, hair like leaking ink and black-rimmed glasses, and they offset her glow in a way he found familiar. She knew just how Tom liked his sodas- the extra pull of ginger syrup on the ice before the seltzer. According to the tag on her apron her name was Leah, and Tom might have heard her one day telling her friend about how she wanted to become a nurse. Her smile, sweeter than the candy aisle, and besides he liked to watch her work while he read the Herald. 

Leah poured without a word, her mouth abloom cross her face like a flower in the warm, beaming at Tom both sugar and spice. He was just ready to ask for a cherry when she plucked one from the bin, plunked it in his glass where the bubbles swarmed it in appreciation. She gave Tom a wink. He looked away, stone-faced.

Some nights the sun just won’t go down: not from spite or anger, just a reluctance to leave the stage. Leaving a day this beautiful is as hard for a star in the sky as the men that walk the Earth. The sun took the long way home, meandering zig, ambling zag, bleeding the sky pink and blue, orange and a new kind of purple, the clouds above town soaking up the sweet while the moon found a parking spot. Spring had happened in Sick City.
The Lipstick Killer had stripped, sipped from the toilet bowl and scrawled a line across the bathroom mirror with Sandy’s Russian Red. He smiled while he applied a coat to his lips, puckering at himself in the mirror, his heart starting to buckle, his head hurling in rush. This was going to be everything wonderful.

Two blocks down the boulevard Sandy was at the Red Rose Lounge, on the clock, dancing with Carl Cassidy, a meat-packer in town from elsewhere. Carl- in his travel suit- determined to forget his wife with the company of a female escort, well on his way with Sandy’s charms against his chest, the music of the big city in his head,  taking liberties. He had danced with Sandy once before, on another business trip, two years gone and he still couldn’t get her smell out of his mustache. His hands found the curve of her waist, his heart submerged in the raging tide of her eyes, no matter how hard she tried to send him back to shore. Carl was in lust.

“Maybe we should...” He put his face into her neck while the trumpet player took a solo, the other couples on the floor moving in equally-metered foreplay.

Sandy, still alive, smiled. “It’s early.”

Tom never gambled- it was noise, foolishness- but he picked up the racing form just to see if his friend Lorenzo Vargas was still running Blood Sugar at the Speedway. 

He smiled, spotting the name, newsprint on his fingers. Son of a bitch. Tom checked his watch: still an hour before he had to drive Sandy to the doctor for her appointment. And afterwards, another late night, all alone. Leah, breasts like peaches in season, watching him reading, acquiring the taste for an older man.

Sandy said little on the walk back to the hotel, letting Carl marinade in his moment. He stopped on the cracked sidewalk- still hot- knelt to tie his shoe and for one golden moment she thought he was proposing, her hair bright violet by the sky’s impossible panorama, bulbs from the strip ballooning, her hand gone to her mouth in a shock automatic. They both laughed, knowing what it wasn’t.

The Lipstick Killer crept into the hotel closet, spilling seed on the carpet floor.

Tom watched Leah eat a plate of French-fried potatoes. With ketchup.

Carl held the hotel door for Sandy, spanking her as she raced inside.

The sun, nostalgic, feeling old, shrugged... finally surrendered.

Sandra, intoxicated, giggle on the bowl, in the dark, making spree while the Lipstick Killer severed Carl’s neck, mashing the eyes out his head like grape-pickers pick grapes off the vine, except entirely different...

Tom, into the Chrysler, engine idle into drive, stationary to mobile, down said street and off across the boulevard...

Sandy, emerging from the bathroom, only to see Carl’s hollow sockets, only to look into the eyes of the man above him, only to see how the Lipstick Killer looked just before the kill.

Chapter 66: Big Gook Meets The Cowboy





Chapter 66


Big Gook Meets The Cowboy








Anna Magenta gave good head: it was thoughtful, reflective. She let her mouth tell a story, a story of emptiness inside and the power of pleasure to make it numb. The girl let feel flow, sensation dictate: a loving stroke was followed by a pause- the notes she didn’t play- and Tom found himself smiling in spite of it all, unable to create a scenario for escape, too tired to deny the bliss. Anna’s cheek was swollen with pride.

She squeezed his knees, the four of them in this private lounge, Gentleman’s West on the boulevard, Tom looking down at Anna enterprising, enjoying her career choice. She winked her eye and puckered, storming the shaft as Atari saw God. Beside Tom sat the Cowboy, the blowjob on his dime, his way of you’re welcome. Tom caught an eyeful of the Cowboy’s member: august & ebony- noble- choking a Puerto Rican preteen. As Atari climaxed he took a moment to ponder, to wonder to himself aloud in silence: ‘Is that all there is to the circus?’

After the girls had eaten the Cowboy rolled a smoke, happy as a Saturday but clearly affected by little Coco’s performance: his hands made shake with the tobacco in the rolling paper and the subsequent cigarette hung from his fat lips skinny. With his ten-gallon hat restored to its home atop his nappy hair he was back in the saddle, the Cowboy once more, gleaming bright in his blue suit, living a lie.

Antony “Tony” Dare- the Cowboy- grandson of a slave, sipping on a Cantarito: so black he was purple. He was the only beneficiary to his grandmother’s fortune, she the widow of white oilman and pariah Frederick Dare. Freddy had fallen in love with his black cook Abigail and married her just before striking oil in Lousiana. When he died his money had gone to Abigail, and when she died the greazy money oozed its way into the hands of her favorite grandson Tony. 

Idle, rich, the Cowboy had ambled out to Sick City several years on to piss his fortune away, reinventing himself as a Western hombre, ignoring his skin tone and speaking with a Texas accent, strange for a black boy from Louisiana. He tried his hand at producing independent features only to learn that Hollywood doesn’t like coloreds- even when they talk like John Wayne. After one incomplete Western he surrendered, his lust helping him settle on a career financing pornographic films, his days spent gambling the profits away and drinking in the sunshine. 

Also tequila. Lots of tequila.

“The filthier the Mexican on the bottle,” Tony Dare inhaled, “the angrier the tequiza.” Neither he or Tom spoke, and then Tony, hearing his own words, began to laugh, and eventually Tom with him. General Marder- the bearded bastard on the bottle of booze- looked at the men with low-key disgust, just waiting for the opportunity to slit their throats. Anna was at another table with Coco, both of them mentally counting the bills.

“Some little white kid came up to me on the street... he wanted to know if I’d come to his birthday party...”

Tom laughed.

“On my horse. Do you believe these people?”

The music from the main stage leaking in through the paper walls... circular jazz so the girls could grind.

“Your girl Heather Jasmine... she was never gonna be in the movies...”

Atari looked over, suddenly sobered, certainly confused.

“That was just used as a bait. Just to get her out the house. Away from the folks.”

Tom’s almost asked: ‘How do you know?’ but he thought better, knowing Tony Dare the Cowboy never had to lie.

Atari wondered: ‘One of a hundred?’ and Tony, as if reading his mind, said aloud, “One of a thousand.”

The Cowboy downed a shot of tequila. “Guy I played in a poker game? He told me so.”

Atari could feel General Marder running wild in his bloodstream, recruiting revolutionaries, raping women and children.

“He was a big man. Nobody tell me who he was until afterwards.”

Atari, unable to speak, didn’t.

“They said, ‘Tony, that Mr. Lerner? That’s Isaac Lerner, head of MCM studios.’ You can bet I look him up after that.”

“Isaac Lerner? The head of MCM Studios?”

“That’s the man. They recruit the girls and then...”

Tom- shot glass in hand- forced himself to swallow. “And then...?”

Tony nodded. “Half make the pictures, the other half Project Geronimo.”

“He said that? He said ‘Project Geronimo’?”

“His words.” The Cowboy poured another ounce of poison. “What the fuck does it mean, anyway?”

Tom sat up, the sight of Big Gook turning his blood green. The Cowboy, stoned, could barely swivel his head.

Big Gook, a bucket of chow mein in a brown paper bag, yellow skin, front teeth to fuck the Easter bunny, head like a hot-air balloon. His real name was Ming Hung and the fact that he couldn’t speak English didn’t stop him from trying. He would have been a load of laughs if he didn’t work for Ed Goffrey as a collector. 

As an enforcer.

“Good afternoon, gennerman.”

He had brought his friend with him, a short slope with cross eyes, a Fu Manchu, and his hand in his pocket.

“Oh no,” Tom Atari, reaching for his gun.

Anna and Coco- one of them surely having made the call- removed themselves from the room.

Big Gook laughed, showing off the blue of his teeth, Fu Manchu steady.

“Hello, Atari,” Big Gook, “don’t worry- today is not yo day today.” He smiled, a serpent unfurling, “We here for the Negro.”

Tom’s finger, rounding the trigger... Fu Manchu watching, ready to pull his piece.

Tony Dare turned to Tom, “You believe this shit? This is about gambling debts.” As if Tom didn’t know.

“You owe SO much money,” Big Gook turned over his shoulder to Fu Manchu, who found the subtle humor in the line without moving his eyes. 

Big Gook gave good chuckle.

The Cowboy licked his massive lips: “Chris Lee gave me to the end of the month.”

The smile was gone from the Gook’s face, faster than cars drive through Montana. 

“Chris Lee...? I don’t see him nowhere.” He stared at the Cowboy.

Tony Dare, sloshed, stood, and in a bolt of lightning Fu Manchu’s gun was pointed directly at his heart. Tom had let his guard down, fatal, would have been dead before the orgasm. 

“Christ!” The Cowboy.

“Sit down.” Big Gook as traffic cop, turning to Fu Manchu, “No no.”

The gun must have had a mind of its own: Fu Manchu nodded in understanding but the Smith & Wesson didn’t move a muscle.

“We friends here. All buddies." Turning to Tom, "Right, buddy?” 

Atari nodded, knowing when to fold. He put his gun on the table and sat back for what was next.

“Right, buddy?”

The Cowboy- hands in the air- lowered them slow, and then, tense, “Right.”

Big Gook pulled up a chair and sat across from the Cowboy. “Only in movies they shoot everybody with pistols. You no good to Mr. Goffrey if you dead. Don’t be a silly!”

It was the way he said ‘silly’ that made Tony laugh, kicking up his boots as his body shook, and then Tom was laughing too, exhaling, taking a much needed shot of General Marder’s righteous nectar. Tony lit a smoke.

Even Big Gook smiled as he pulled out the bowie knife: “But I do have to take you testicles.”

Chapter 44: My Bloody Valentine




Chapter 44

My Bloody Valentine





Sandy was the first firework you saw in the sky. She was precious- better- a diamond so pure that most men were blind to her glow. She was the prize- his reason for fighting. Tom woke up in the midnight blue, Sandy in his arms, feeling her skirt against his khaki pants, watching her breast rise and fall as she slept, her blonde hair bunched beneath his chin, their shoed feet making dangle from the office couch.

Atari was hard- always hard around Sandy- and he thought of the infinite delight that would come from being inside her, from putting himself in her sweet spot, from being where he belonged.

He didn’t dare.

She stirred, opening her eyes, full of sleep and relief, blinking at him. Tom looked into her eyes, eyes that held the ocean- storm, rage, sweet and salted- and it was, as always, his first sip of whiskey. She smiled at him and then those round eyes closed again, taking her back to sleep. Part of Tom went with her.

Sandy’s past would make you cry your eyes out, and no one wants to cry. She was subject to torturous, inhuman scenarios- nightmares to shock even Atari. But somehow she was still here- alive, real... she had overcome: she had survived. He tried to think back when he had met her- she was working as a hostess on the strip, riding the laps of gentleman customers and taking her turns in the backroom. He had walked in one day and Sandy had seen him- her eyes like curveballs- walked up and put her arms around him, as if she had known him forever, and Tom couldn't say he felt different. He felt her crying against his collar, felt her chest heaving, and he was so overcome he almost... well, he almost.

Since that day they couldn’t stay out of each other’s lives... not that they gave it any effort. Any given part of the girl stopped him cold- on this February Friday she was giving off steam heat to warm him, and tonight he needed her warmth. Sandy was pulse, in harmony, he could feel the blood running through her veins and it was primal: pump. She was the proof he was waiting for, a series of green lights, unfolded origami, steak seared to perfection. Sandra Marianne Cole: the exception to every one of his rules.

He had made the rule just after they met- not to take her to bed. The last thing she needed in her life was another man after her ass, and he had held strong through a lifetime of temptation. It made him ache: there was something about this baby... something. Tom could only shake his head and let himself wonder. The curve of her neck took his eyes on an endless Sunday: picnic at the foothills, champagne at the slopes. The slow golden curls falling from her head dangled, entangled her into him in ways she could never know, couldn’t comprehend.

It was the end of another dirty night for both of them, another sweet taste of their death- and too much taste will kill you. He knew they were safe here- temporarily- and still his gun was clutched sore in his hand. He knew she would try to go back, try to retake her money and some strand of dignity: he knew he couldn’t let her. When she woke up he would tell her what he wanted to, what he had to, what he had been dying to say- driven to- by the pounding of his own human heart. He would use that foul word, if only to shock her, to ruin her like she did him.

Green neons- outside the office window- shown good shine down the brown leather sofa. Sandra turned and- sound asleep- rubbed herself against him, hugging him backwards with her bottom and shoulders. He felt the soft meat of her arm against his chest and something inside him shattered without a sound. He allowed himself to see this alternative to reality, a variation on a theme: the long vacation as an absolute possibility. The house and him inside it, Sandy Cole at the sink wringing out the rag with his ring wrapped around her finger. Just her turning, just the one smile sliding across her sculpted lips, making it all right, making it- it’s bliss- all worthwhile. Peach pie baking in the oven proud, apron draped around her waist, black coffee in the cup- could something dumb be so sublime?

The dream dead, now dying, now back in the box on the shelf, now back to this dimension and his timeline so untidy. Still, Tom took the trip back slow, lingering through over-exposed photographs and the haze of cumming, through the hot fever to tell of the crush and delight, across the scuffed white surface, waffle-board ceilings, through the cloud of smoke and continuity, down the stream of independence, barely looking up her dress, and over the waters, soul in the deep, grace below the surface, love in the dark of night: the longest hour.

Sandy woke up, stretch, yawn and dawn.

She whispered through the smile: “Tom...”

Atari punched her face as hard as he could, blacking her eye and knocking her unconscious.